MONDAY
JULY 11TH, 2011
(SEMPITERNITY)
2:28
PM
Ugh.
Yeah, I guess
I needed that rest.
How long did I sleep?
..where's Donnie?
2:30
PM
Downstairs now.
The
sky outside is blue. A crisp bright Georgia summer blue.
This
isn't real.
Living room.
My dad's on his laptop on the
couch, typing away at his websites, his horse racing, his lists of
movies. I can see through him at an empty dusty couch.
The empty
space where should just be wall displays a television, with a
documentary playing that I'll never watch.
Dad doesn't look at
me. Because he's not real. He's a shadow.
Now there are many
shadows on the wall.
They aren't connected to the
Beast, the man on the corner, the Father
my dad. My dad is just another remnant of the Musicians' powers
working their way through my mind. I don't see them, and they might
have gone on to torment someone else, but their effects linger.
The
shadows on the wall are different somehow. I think they're really
there.
They're humanoid and featureless, like Shadowclones but
showing no sign of spontaneous reproduction.
They are just..
there.
Not laughing at me. They stand and sway gently, naturally. Like they
were once human.
I feel as if these are creatures I cannot name,
but still there's a word in my head I can't trace the source of.
The
Victims.
They know me. Something tells me I know them. They know
my delusions all too well, and they have seen my nightmares.
They
live nightmares every day, trapped as eternal shadows. How did they
become shadows? That's not clear to me, and they won't say. They
can't
say. They want
to say, I feel as if they might reach out of the walls and grab me by
the shoulders, scream
the answer to me. But they won't, as they can't. They're shadows.
Forever now.
All they can do is shift along the walls of our
disillusioned daydreams and pray we follow them down the rabbit hole.
2:35
PM
They're coagulating around the door to the basement.
Is
that the rabbit hole?
Down the stairs, into the darkness,
open the Door, and let’s have a peek.
2:36
PM
It’s a courtroom.
Huh.
Lots of creatures
hustle to and fro, animals and man-sized insects, groups of what look
like gingerbread men rushing past my feet, everyone has a place to
go.
Statues along the walls depict something complicated I don't
have time to process, as
"Mister Dooling?"
huh.
Someone
in a tweed suit and a blindfold beckons me.
Who are you?
"Call
me Sempi. I'm a friend of Father Tiresias. And right now, you very
much need a friend."
What's happening?
"You're on
trial."
...what's
happening??
"We
can't waste time, we've got to get inside."
2:39
PM
We've sat down at
a bench. This looks like an
ordinary enough courtroom, although there's construction going on
around the judge's seat.
"The Judge wishes to see
you."
Alright, well, who's the judge?
"The Judge
is a Fear."
A Fear in the rabbit holes?
"You'll
have time to wonder on the details later. I'm here to make sure you
don't do anything stupid."
Well. Okay. Thanks?
Is he
scary?
"If you look directly at him, your eyeballs will
melt."
What?
"Also, he knows everything about
you. So don't lie."
Okay... uh...
Is there anything I
need to do, in particular? Am I going to jail?
"Just..."
hand on my shoulder "Stay calm. Okay? Stick with that."
2:45
PM
The jury are all Camper, complete with fleshy wings and
long arms.
The judge is not currently at the stand.
The
prosecution is just arriving.
That. Is some kind of alien.
Green, long neck, big black eyes, lots of arms.
Sempi's telling
me not to stare. Right. Sorry.
2:48
PM
"Will everyone please rise for the formidable
Judge?"
I can hear some sort of noise coming from the
judge’s seat that sounds like a cross between a bass guitar making
distorted sweeps and the soft pitter-patter of raindrops. Or perhaps
popcorn. But not that loud. ..rice krispies.
I really want to
look.
A Camper looked. His eyes are now being coated in a
skin-coloured substance. The substance slowly burns away, and now all
that are left are empty eye sockets.
Not even a scream.
2:49
PM
"COURT IS IN SESSION."
the
voice is thundering and makes my bones twitch with odd high
frequencies
"I HAVE A LOT TO GO THROUGH TODAY, SO
LET'S MAKE THIS AN EXPEDIENT ONE. THE DEFENDANT IS ONE
JORDAN DOOLING. MISTER DOOLING, ARE YOU PRESENT AND OF STABLE
MIND?"
uh
look at the ground
Yes,
sir.
"THEN WE CAN BEGIN."
my chair
is raising, gotta look at the sides, look anywhere but at the
judge
"I UNDERSTAND THE DEFENDANT IS FROM THE UNITED
KINGDOM, AND HE ACCESSED THIS COURTROOM FROM GEORGIA,
OR AS IT'S NOW CALLED, THE COUNTRY OF SOUTHERN GEORGIA.
DID HE CROSS COUNTRIES LEGALLY?"
sempi "Your
Honor, Mister Dooling crossed in an authorized vessel piloted by a
licensed captain. The documentation has been provided as page 4 of
the defense's report."
"...SO IT HAS. VERY
GOOD."
"Furthermore, starting on May 21st of
2011, Earth time, neither the United Kingdom nor the United States
jurisdiction which became the country of Southern Georgia has
retained their restrictions on human migration between nations."
"A
POLICY I DO NOT AGREE WITH BUT ACKNOWLEDGE. VERY GOOD. AND THEN HIS
PRIOR ACTIVITIES ACROSS FRANCE AND SPAIN WILL HAVE FALLEN UNDER
STANDARD EUROPEAN UNION FREEDOM OF MOVEMENT. VERY GOOD! HE'S PASSING
ON MIGRATION. THE NEXT MATTER IS THE STATUTORY."
"The
defense raises that the defendant's background fails to meet the
requirements necessary to warrant an inspection of Statutory
Violations."
"The prosecution concurs, Your
Honor."
"ALRIGHT THEN."
awkward
silence
look at the jury
...I can hear that one's eyes
still making little popping noises
okay uh
look at.. my
shoes…
"MISTER DOOLING. ARE YOU AWARE
OF WHAT COMES NEXT?"
No, Your Honor.
"ARE
YOU AWARE OF WHO I AM?"
No, Your Honor. I have been
told you are a Fear.
"I AM."
So..
you're from Earth?
"I'LL ASK THE QUESTIONS.
"AS
THE SITTING JUDGE OF THIS COURTROOM, I HAVE A DUTY TO OVERSEE
PROCEDURAL MATTERS REGARDING INTERUNIVERSAL TRAVEL. BUT BEYOND THAT,
AS THE FEAR OF RIGHTEOUS JUDGEMENT, I HAVE A DUTY TO BRING TO THIS
COURT A MORE INTENSE PRACTICE THEY ARE NOT USED TO WITNESSING.
I AM AN INQUISITOR. AND, NOT TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION BUT AT LEAST TO
ADDRESS IT, I SPECIALIZE IN THE FLAWS OF THE HUMAN MIND.
"MISTER
DOOLING, I ALREADY KNOW YOUR GUILT. YOU ARE FREE TO ASK FOR
CLARIFICATION ON THAT, BUT WHEN I PASS MY VERDICT AT THE END OF THIS
TRIAL, IT IS FINAL."
I. What?
"AGAIN,
YOU ARE FREE TO ASK FOR CLARIFICATION. IT IS ONLY NATURAL."
You
already know my guilt?
"YES."
On
what grounds? Guilt of what?
"I KNOW
THAT YOU HAVE ENGAGED IN PHYSICAL ALTERCATIONS WITH MEMBERS OF YOUR
OWN FAMILY, NOT ALL OF WHOM WERE FIGHTING YOU AT THE TIME. I KNOW
YOUR ENCOUNTERS WITH LAW ENFORCEMENT, YOUR NEAR-ARRESTS, YOUR
TRESPASSES OF SCHOOL PROPERTY AFTER-HOURS. THESE WILL BE DEALT WITH
IN TIME. I KNOW YOUR BLOGS. I KNOW YOUR WRITINGS. I KNOW THE
PECULIARITIES OF YOUR PSYCHOLOGY. YOU DO NOT GET PAST ME. I CAN
APPRECIATE THE SUBTLETIES OF THE SITUATIONS IN WHICH YOU HAVE FOUND
YOURSELF. THESE, ALONE, DO NOT DETERMINE YOUR GUILT; THEY ONLY
NECESSITATE TRIALS FOR LATER DATES.
"WHAT HAS BROUGHT YOU
INTO MY COURTROOM TODAY ARE TWO EVENTS THAT, IN MY EXPERIENCE, ARE
ALMOST COMPLETELY UNHEARD OF.
"ON JUNE 17TH, 2011, EARTH
TIME, YOU ASSAULTED A FEAR UNPROVOKED.
"AND ON JULY 8TH,
2011, IBID, YOU KNOWINGLY SABOTAGED" something
"INFRASTRUCTURE.
"MISTER DOOLING, ARE
YOU AWARE OF WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT?"
Well,
'assaulted a Fear' can only really refer to the Harlequin.
"AND
THE OTHER ONE?"
July 8th was only a few days ago.
Was that the God Machine?
"CORRECT."
Huh.
sempi
"Your Honor, if I may raise a point. The Harlequin, formerly
Rosa Syclus, was assaulted by Jordan Dooling and Donnivan Rand on
June 17th, this is acknowledged by the defense and by the Harlequin
herself; however, she does not wish to press charges."
"...LUCKY
FOR YOUR CLIENT. ALRIGHT. THAT DOES, IN FACT, ADDRESS THAT
MATTER."
I'm.. surprised at that. Why wouldn't she
want to press charges if there's, like, a whole Fear Court?
sempi
"The Judge may be a Fear, but this court does not serve—"
"THE
TIME FOR DISCUSSION IS ANY OTHER TIME THAN NOW."
"I
apologize, Your Honor."
"SO. JULY 8TH. WAS THERE
A GOOD REASON FOR YOUR ACTIONS?"
Would a good
reason even matter here?
"MISTER DOOLING."
Right.
Uh. I was acting on a lot of assumptions. I had gotten it from
Tiresias that I needed to decode the Seven Ciphers in order to open
his book, and then I heard that the God Machine was one of the
Ciphers?
"SO TIRESIAS IS INVOLVED IN THIS. THAT
IS NOT ENTIRELY SURPRISING."
You
didn't know that?
"I WAS NOT CERTAIN.
FATHER TIRESIAS IS INACCESSIBLE. HOWEVER, THIS DOES NOT CHANGE MY
VERDICT. I AM READY TO DELIVER."
fuck
"JORDAN
DOOLING, YOU ARE GUILTY. YOU ARE MOST DEFINITELY GUILTY. YOU
SABOTAGED OUR SYSTEMS OF RELIGION AND COMMUNICATION. WITHOUT DEUS EX
MACHINA, IT IS MUCH HARDER TO MANIFEST A UNIFIED VOICE IN XANADU. YOU
DID A MOST DANGEROUS THING."
I'm sorry.
"COURT
IS ADJOURNED."
...what?
my chair is back on
the ground. people are getting up and leaving.
Sorry, that's..
that's it?
"YOU ARE GUILTY. YOU MUST LIVE WITH
THAT."
But. That's??
...sempi's shaking their
head
....I mean, alright.
3:20
PM
Sempi took me to the courthouse cafe and fed me.
So,
uh.
"You're guilty."
I am, but, like. There's no
sentence.
"Not as such, no. But the next time you see the
Judge, you already have a record."
Well. I can just avoid
this court, right?
"Can you avoid where you go here? Can
you control your destinations in Xanadu?"
Well. No!
"Then
you see the issue."
But does he have jurisdiction? Isn't he
in-- god, this is ridiculous,
you see that, right? God, I
haven't felt... like actually threatened
by anything in such a long time. I feel like the gods are just
fucking around.
"Hm. Have you heard of the principle,
'Death By A Thousand Cuts?'"
No, but that sounds
self-explanatory.
"You're still young. You have a lot to
keep track of. You're bound to slip up somewhere."
I
guess.
I dunno.
I really thought destroying the God Machine
was what I was supposed
to do.
"Did Tiresias tell you to do it?"
Not.. in
so many words.
"He gave you a vague prophecy."
Yes!
Precisely.
"That's him."
Do you think he set me
up? Or that I'm an idiot.
"Tiresias wouldn't set you up.
Not without a plan."
You put a lot of trust in him.
"I've
known him for a long time."
Arghh!!!
I don't know. I
don't know what any of this means. I don't understand what's
happening.
I've.. been
asleep for so long. I've missed something important. I.
Donnie.
Mister Brown.
Can I go home? Can I go back?
"You're
done with trial, you can go wherever you need."
Okay. Well.
Thank you, Sempi. It's been nice to meet you.
4:09
PM
Came back to Earth,
left the court the way I came in.
Donnie was sitting in the
driveway, watching the trees. She had no idea I'd even woken up.
She
says Mr. Brown left this morning. He had something he needed to do.
Then, this afternoon, she saw a school bus drive by up the road. She
thinks he went to confront Death.
I.
Dammit.
I
probably could have... stopped him? I probably could have at least
talked to him. But I was asleep. And then I was... wasting time down
in wherever the fuck.
Donnie says she understands, but, I think
she's getting a little sick of backing me up. She must be.
So
we're taking the car, we're getting the hell out of here. I've had
enough of Georgia. I'm gonna drive, I'm gonna let Donnie sleep this
time, I'm gonna take care of her. And we're heading for Nebraska.
I'm
gonna make things right.
I'm gonna...
6:04
PM
…I’m just gonna play some music, okay? Okay.
There.
Metallica. Death Magnetic. I’ve had this album in my head
all day.
9:58
PM
Donnie woke up.
Says we should probably get some rest soon.
Even though I’ve
been asleep for days, I feel like that’s not a bad idea.
10:59
PM
Stopping at this house here. Middle of nowhere. Just off
the road.
11:02
PM
..there’s someone here. They’re running around back.
11:04
PM
There’s a giant pond back here.
I don’t see
anyone nearboh.
There’s someone crouching by the pond.
11:05
PM
A giant tentacle is rising out of the pond. It’s
grabbing the person
and
pulling them in.
o_e;;
11:07
PM
..and the person is climbing back out of the
pond.
“Hello, Rael. Victoria.”
Oh. Hi, EAT. o__o;
"I
hear you've been busy."
We, um. We did a thing with a
Cipher.
"Yes. Would you allow me to read your journals?"
11:13
PM
The Camper took my journal and skimmed through it.
"Ah,
so you've heard of my meeting with the government."
Oh! Oh
right, that was you! You're Salmacis!
"The name made sense.
I see you've also met the Archangel, the Musicians... Tiresias... and
the Judge. You've met a lot now."
A lot of them meet us,
really…
"You've made some questionable decisions in all
this. I wouldn't advise making so many enemies."
Well...
^^;;
"But your work with the Ciphers is promising. That's
the best lead so far."
I was told I may have, um.. done
something really bad? By destroying the God Machine?
"You
may have. Or you may have just attracted the wrong kind of attention,
which would make sense if these Ciphers are the key to preventing the
terminal coming of Rapture."
But you don't want us making
so many enemies?
"As far as I see it, Rapture is already
our enemy. And, furthermore, any wrench in the system will either
help us, or at least
teach us something about how our enemy works.
So even if you fail catastrophically, you'll be doing the world a
favor."
Um.
donnie "We'd rather not have to
die."
"Of course. In any case, your plan is to head
further west?"
Yeah.
...wait.
...should
I have not shown you my
journals?
"It was, by all measures, another strange
decision on your part. I thank you for trusting me, as I benefit from
it, but should you
trust me? I don't know how to answer that."
donnie "Are
you a threat to us?
Are you going to hurt us?"
"I have no reason to.
You're just two additional bodies, and any knowledge I may gain from
your brains generally already finds its way to me thanks to your
indiscretion."
Well.
Thanks..?
"Please. Now,
I encourage your westward progress. There are still plenty of Doors,
allowing search for the remaining Ciphers, and furthermore, you will
end up near California."
What's in California?
"Someone
else claiming to know you. It is primarily a trend of graffiti, all
in the same hand, asking for your whereabouts by name. I have not yet
seen the source of this. I can look into it further, if you
wish?"
Would. Would that trouble you? I'd appreciate the
help.
"I will look into it further."
…
"That's
all."
...o_o
11:46
PM
Uh. Yeah. We're
driving on.
The Camper was just.. standing there, by the pond,
outside the house.
We didn't want to sleep in that
house.
...god, that was weird.
God, today
was weird.
America, you're weird.
Nebraska. California.
Right. We can do this.
(Attached:
“So there I was,
far closer to the start of my long life,
roaming some supermarket in Germany for food, looking for some more
beer
and hoping for mead, when I
heard this weird noise from a few aisles down. Sounded like a church
organ being hit with a train. Then there were slow steady footsteps,
and out came an androgynous figure
in plain clothes and a blindfold.
This
person called to me, asked if I was Tiresias.
I quickly replied,
---
Tiresias is
dead. I’m Thoth.
--
You’re still
young...
I am the
Sempiternity. You
don’t know me.
---
I don’t, that’s
right. Who are you?
--
I am the Fear of
forever. I’m looking to talk to whoever’s left on this planet.
---
Well,
civilization’s rebuilding all over;
there are plenty of people
left.
--
I mean the Fears.
What Fears are left?
I paused to think for a bit. We hadn't used
the 'Fear'
moniker in quite some time.
---
I know there’s
the
Musicians and Salmacis.. and the
Omen, too. I think Red survived— that is, the
Colour of Blood— though she probably went back to
Tuonela.
Sempiternity
said, surprised,
--
This is a small
list.
What about Death? Or the slender man? Surely one of the Brothers
Sleep survived!
---
Death’s gone.
Slendy too. I don’t know who the Brothers Sleep are.
--
You really are
still young, Thoth.
This elicited a shrug from me.
--
What about this
planet, what happened that took such powerful beings?
---
Rapture
came.
Sempiternity’s head fell into their hands.
I put an
arm around them and said I knew how they felt.
A little while
later, we walked together out of town, taking to the deserted
forested streets. I talked about the apocalypse Earth faced two years
prior, and Sempiternity told me about where they were from.
--
I was a human once.
It was too long ago, too far away. The Fears took me and tortured me,
judged me, made me one of them. I was to live forever, they said. To
be an immortal. That’s my only power, that’s all they did. I
can’t die.
I said it sounded awesome.
--
I can still feel
pain. I can still suffer. If I undergo too much pain, I go to sleep
and wake up healed, my aching dulled, my wounds scarred.
I
stumbled and listened.
--
It’s been so long
since I was human. I don’t remember who I was, what my name was,
what my life was. I don’t even remember if this was my universe.
This is why I searched for Tiresias; I was hoping his library would
hold my book.
---
I understand. I’m
sorry.
--
He was my best
friend. He walked down the road of aeons with me many times; he
always said he’d show me his library some day, and we’d be able
to look for my book together.
---
Well, if you
want, I can help you look for it. I’ve never stepped in his
Peisistratos myself, though I know people who have. And I mean, it’s
not like I’m doing much these days. I’ve been wandering ever
since the world was saved.
The Sempiternity gave a wide smile
and held out a hand.
--
Let’s shake on
it, then. We’ll be new friends, and we’ll look for the
Blind Man’s library.
I took that hand and I shook it tightly,
happy to help. Then we set off down another road towards new names
and old faces.”)