MONDAY
JULY 18TH, 2011
(A
Conversation with
Tiresias)
9:42
AM
I stayed awake for some amount of time last night just
thinking. Thinking about what I need to ask Tiresias today.
Donnie's
up. We slept on mattresses on the floor. I don't think sleeping
arrangements were accounted for when building this library. Fair
enough. It's a library.
There he is, at a table covered in
stacks of books. Leafing through them. Not even putting his hand on
them or anything? How do the blind read?
Alright, okay. It's
time to get up. It's time to talk.
9:45
AM
The Peisistratos looks a lot.. darker than usual. We’re
gathered around a lamp that’s the only light source here.
Tiresias
isn’t saying anything. He's stuck in his book.
The lamp is
weird. It’s, like.. stained glass? All these little colourful
shapes on it that, when lit, project presumably images onto any
nearby walls. However, since there are no walls close enough, their
projections are lost to the shadows that surround us.
“The
Sampo built you to fulfil a promise.”
o_o Tiresias?
“Hm?
Sorry. What’s up?”
You. Wanted to talk.
“What day is
it? Wait, we must be in July. Never mind.”
We decoded the
sixth Cipher. Cockroach Jesus said we've destroyed the thing that was
holding back more cruelty?
grimace and grunt "He has reason
to say that. Overnight, the frequency of Doors on Earth has
increased, with many of them opening up on worlds that are.. hostile,
allowing free passage for monsters to run across our planet. New
Doors, new monsters. Furthermore, enough time has passed that the
monsters you're used to are,
likewise, getting used to you."
Shit.
"The
nature of the Doors themselves, the passages, the portals, is
evolving too. Many of them are no longer mere physical doors."
donnie
"Oh yeah, we've experienced some of those. There's been times
we've just been driving along, and suddenly the scenery around us
changes without warning."
"A portal without a door.
The Doors are now just a formality. I fear this most of all,
as I fear what it means. I fear what has happened to the Empty
City…"
The. The Empty City. We heard something about
that. A denizen of the rabbit holes, uh, Polygamus was his name, told
us that some Earthlings had mentioned... uh, dammit, where's the
journal…
9:48
AM
Right, he didn't say much, just that Xanadu isn't
the Empty City.
"The Empty City is a Fear. ...was
a Fear. The Doors were on Earth before, you see. There was a time
when humans would notice a door that didn't match their building's
blueprints, a door that they hadn't noticed before, a door that
shouldn't be there. They would open this door and step into the Empty
City. And they'd be trapped there, forever."
That.. was a
thing? On Earth?
Already?
donnie "Was there anything in
the Empty City? I know the name is Empty, but…"
"It's
a fair question. And I am the one to ask, as I spent a lot of my
youth on those streets. I think there was
something in there, something alive. I never found out what. But the
City itself was alive too, and it regularly saw visits from the gods.
The.. Fears. We were free to come and go, we were free to hold our
meetings there."
Right. Okay. But. This City is no longer
around?
"At the moment the apocalypse began, the City
vanished."
And meanwhile, the Doors were still here, but
they took you elsewhere. To Xanadu.
"Mm, the coincidence is
not lost on me."
But. But Polygamus was pretty
convincing about that place never having been just
a city. So I don't think
the Empty City turned into Xanadu, like some kind of
werewolf-city-universe.. were-city...
"I don't think it did
either. Yet the Doors have been unmistakable. Xanadu somehow took
the Doors for its own purposes."
Hm…
donnie
"what, that makes sense to you?"
I'm not saying that,
exactly. But it's.. sinking in for me, the kind of scale of the
entities we're dealing with here.
tiresias "As well
it should. You need it to
sink in, both of you:
Whatever Rapture is,
it is an encounter between gods,
gods of man and environment.
Did you know that England, and the immediate European coastline, is
gone? It is one giant
rabbit hole. Xanadu's Doors have merged
there."
we both said "fuck."
"Yet you
also need this to sink in, and I realize this is a jarring
juxtaposition: Humans are not powerless against
this."
Well, no. We
have you guys. We have the Fears!
donnie "When they're not
too busy trying to kill us."
"I fear you're missing my
point. The Fears are more gods in this encounter."
Maybe
you're missing a point too. Maybe humans, alone, can do great things,
sure. But humans and
Fears, working together? This
apocalypse might have been over already.
"…"
Why
are the rest of them so.. hostile?
"For some, habit. For
others, a genuine disdain for humanity.
Understand, your gods have a long history. Most of the gods you meet
are descendants of long lines of rivalries, with long memories
recalling scathing battles and far-dead ideas. We call ourselves
'Fears' now out of... it's... it's complicated. We're not strictly
hostile to you. We fear ourselves
too. We fear the things we can do so easily, and we absolutely fear
the things that humanity might have
us do if we were to open ourselves up."
So. So it's not
impossible.
"It's
not impossible. It sounds like your partner doesn't approve,
though."
donnie scoffed. "I don't."
but
you're okay with tiresias, right?
"so far."
"Might
I ask who you were thinking of.. befriending?"
Anyone
who'd be receptive!
donnie "He's already buddy-buddy with
that Camper thing."
"Heh. Now
this is beginning to make sense."
Should I not be? Is
Salmacis known for betrayal or something?
"A friendship
with EAT is not necessarily up to you. They're the one reaching out.
If you're on board with it, then so much the better, I see no reason
to stop you."
Well-- thanks. But actually I didn't want to
bring up EAT. I wanted to bring up the Musicians.
...he
accidentally hit his hand on the table in surprise.
"Ow.
The Musicians? You
want to cooperate with the Musicians?"
donnie's
shocked too.
Look, it's
more that I'm wondering
about them. I want to know more about them. They definitely aren't
friendly. But they're... odd. They're talkative. They know a lot
about humans.
"The..."
sigh "The Musicians, or their ancestor, is the reason we have
gods in the first place. Ptah has never wavered from his
righteousness. Ericapeus... has. But I'd never tell them that. The
truth is, those two, even in the present day, are the glue holding us
all together."
Okay. That's a lot of names and statements
that mean nothing to me.
"They are not used to working with
humans. At most, they like to watch
humans. And if they understand much about your brain, it's because
the patterns making up
a human mind are more fundamental than the mind itself. I don't..
think you can work with them? I don't think they want to work with
you."
But.
…
"What?"
...but
would they lie to me?
"...about
what?"
Tiresias.
Did you meet Anna? Did you tell Anna
she needed to decode the Ciphers?
...
9:52
AM
I read, for
Tiresias, the entry in my journal about the paper we found in the
factory.
"Cipher's ahead, a few Doors away. Someone's gotta
do it. Tiresias said. Remember, Anna: Someone's gotta do
it."
Tiresias remains silent.
I think I hit a
target.
"That was... that
Anna. Of course. It was about a week ago. She found her way into my
library, she had clearly been wandering the rabbit holes. I told her
about the Ciphers. She must have... misunderstood."
Are you
sure? Are you sure you didn't tell her something similar to what you
told us last time?
"What does it matter to you? Perhaps
I've told the same to every
human who makes his way here. I want my book back."
Tiresias,
I.. don't even really care about your motivations here. I'm not
trying to hound you. I
just want to know one thing:
What was her last
name?
he's looking at me,
mouth open, a little baffled.
"It was... Rhodes. Annabelle
Rhodes."
9:55
AM
Jordan
has walked off. If I'm understanding the situation correctly, he
needs to be alone right now.
This
leaves me alone with
Tiresias, but I don't really feel threatened by him. He's an old man,
far more interested in talking.
He encouraged me to take the journal and write for myself. And, he
said that someone will need to write down the last thing he needs to
say.
"With six ciphers decoded, my book is held shut by yet
one more lock. But I have been, perhaps, overzealous in sending you
off to face eldritch horrors in the name of the one
positive consequence that this
will bring. The truth is, the ciph"
Sorry, I'm cutting this
off. The ciphers do what?
How long have you known?
"I was a fool. I didn't connect
the dots."
You said. The ciphers assist Rapture's
coming.
"Rapture's
terminal coming,
specifically. The jargon is important."
But how long have
you known? Did you
know when you sent us for the God Machine?
"The what?"
Um,
number five.
"Ah, of course. Well... I had all the evidence
in front of me. I have not learned anything new
since I have last seen you. I have only been untangling all that I
know."
Well. Where are you getting your knowledge from, if
you're trapped in here? Do you have sources?
"This book."
He pointed. "Written by an ancient rhapsodist, identity long
shrouded in mystery– though I believe it to be the work of either
Gengelk or Hebehkreh. In any case, the author had prior experience
with a very similar sequence of events. They weren't called ciphers
then, but there is a clear linear sequence of Sevens. First come the
Seven Locks, then the Seven Dialogues, and then the Seven Temples, or
Houses. Each leads into the next, and at the end of the Seventh House
is the terminal coming of Rag'Toor, or, Rapture. I believe the Seven
Locks to be the Seven Ciphers."
So we shouldn't be pursuing
these ciphers at all.
"'The Seventh Lock opened
to silence, until began plastic broadcast doom duets.'"
Whatever.
Does that book say what Rapture is?
"No.
Nothing says what Rapture is. There are only ever riddles. At the end
of the seventh House, or whatever it'll be for us, the seventh
Dialogue is finally ended, as that one apparently lasts the whole
duration of the Houses. There will be a Beast that is imprisoned once
more, a Harlot there with him.
A Newborn strangled in his crib. The Future in a plastic bag. The
Lamb lies down on the broad way, Jordan will get a kick out of
that one. And then the last
statement in the entire book:
"1 = -1/12."
Math?
"It..
bears resemblance to a famous infinite series. But it's wrong,
it's warped, it's..
impossible."
And
then, after all that, comes Rapture.
"Yes."
Whatever
the fuck Rapture is.
"I think Rapture is the future in the
plastic bag."
Well, what the fuck does that
mean?
...silence. I think he spoke faster than his brain, and
now he's trying to think things through.
"You will not set
foot in this library again for some time. That Beast that was
mentioned, well, we do
have one of those among our Fears. And his influence grows,
flourishes, and condenses into a dew."
Again, I..
"Yes,
you're lost. That's fine. Give these things time. You two have new
worries, and they require full concentration. Hold your mind high
when facing your Fears."
Alright. Thank you, Tiresias.
He
smiled at me. "You're welcome, Donnivan. Goodbye."
10:30
AM
I followed the Door that Jordan had entered and found my
way to Castle Dale, Utah. Back to the red sky, back to the empty
towns.
10:32
AM
I'll find you, Jordan. We'll get through this.
10:40
PM
IIII
II
(Attached: “Have you ever wondered what the world would look like if we were all blind? I mean, if everyone on Earth suddenly lost their sight at the exact same time. And we all worked with one another– after some hefty tough early days of total chaos– to support each other and make life okay again. Music would prolly become way more popular. But what would things look like to an outsider, I wonder? Like, someone who could see who just sorta stumbled upon our planet at that point. And I mean, besides the fact that lots of people would be screaming and crying and bumping into things, maybe more or less than usual. I wonder what colors our world would become, our cultures and our fashions and stuff, the colors of a world that can no longer appreciate them.”)