SUNDAY
JULY 17TH, 2011
(The
Grand Gtheru)
9:04
AM
Woke up to the sound of snoring.
We're still here.
Still on the plane.
Donnie's sleeping next to me, sleeping
soundly.
The sky outside is orange, reminds me of a sunset.
That
factory from last night... it persisted into my dreams.
Like we
missed something in there. Like we're gonna have to go back, if not
soon then sooner than later. Like there was someone in there who
needed our help. Like, if we'd kept going downstairs, flight after
flight, we'd start seeing patterns in the blackness that would have
given away the game and told us everything we'll ever need to know.
If only we'd save the beast below…
But these are just dreams.
Dreams in the apocalypse…
Well. There's no use going over it
again now.
We've got a different kind of staircase to descend,
deeper and deeper. What's at the bottom of this one?
9:07
AM
She wants a bit more rest.
Well, okay. I guess I’ll
just stay here a little longer.
9:27
AM
The plane shook heavily.
We got some turbulence or
something?
…inner turbulence? *rim shot*
9:30
AM
OH GOD HEAVY TURBULENCE THIS MUST BE THE SEVENTH
DEGREE
Donnie's awake. Reaching for her rifle. I don't know if
that'll do much good in a moving plane.
We've just gotta..
brace.
I'm gonna look out the window. The sky's changed to
purple real fast.
9:32
AM
The clouds are giant floating spiders.
We’re
flying through an upside down mountain range in the sky. The same
mountain range is down below.
We've been here before.
Something
looks odd, though. The sky isn’t actually pulsing purple
here; it’s just plain purple. Maybe it’s because we decoded the
fifth Cipher?
..ope, more heavy turbulence.
9:34
AM
The sky is swirling colors.
9:36
AM
..it’s settled on a starker orange, pulsing red a few
times a minute.
Now the plane's starting to dip. I think we're
landing. I think we're here.
9:38
AM
We've got a bag with weapons in it. There's the ammo for
our rifle, the gun itself strapped to Donnie's back. There's Tiger
Stripes, which I've got on my
back. There's Donnie's frying pan, staying in the bag for now. And we
still have some nonperishable foods in the bag too.
I'll carry
the bag.
9:45
AM
…wait what
physics
where are they
THE
PLANE HAS JUST ABRUPTLY STOPPED.
We are now suspended in
mid-air, frozen in place above what looks like a cornfield far
below.
I don’t like where this is going.
9:46
AM
"Over here, by the door. I found parachutes."
Oh
god, we’re really gonna have to do it.
We’re up in the
clouds. Uh, spiderclouds. This isn’t going to be a pleasant
landing.
9:53
AM
Well. That was terrifying. It wasn’t as much of a drop
as I’d expected, thankfully, but.. well, I suppose once you get
past the jump and make sure to pull the string, it’s over
quick.
Hoo.
Right.
Thoughts.
This
cornfield’s.. not what I was expecting. The corn’s all eyestalks.
With eyes on top of each. o_o
9:57
AM
They kinda remind me of spaghetti.
"Pfft, shut
up, they look nothing like
spaghetti."
9:59
AM
I just bumped into a tall black pole, and it felt warm
and full of life.
Legsteps.
They’re inactive right now,
though. Just big legs.
10:40
AM
The eyefield finally ended.
Now there’s a few
miles of grassy plains ahead of us.
The grass is a distinct teal
hue, and there’s a strangely warm wind blowing through.
It’s
just miles of sprawling teal plains in all directions, other than
dead ahead, as this is where it gets interesting.
A few miles
ahead of us is an enormous structure, what I’d call some sort of
eldritch Rapture Tower. It stretches high into the sky, far higher
than even the hourglass mountain from the God Machine’s Realm
stretched to.
It makes me wonder what abomination inhabits this
section of Xanadu.
11:13
AM
Lightning struck in front of us. o_o;
Of course, it
was the awesome hamburger lightning, so we got free food out of it.
11:54
AM
We’re at the tower entrance. There’s a door with no
doorknob, and an inscription on the side.
The inscription shows
“eyestalk = key.”
…fuck. >_>
Well, at
least we have plenty of time to do this!
11:58
AM
Starting the long trek. Sigh.
12:32
PM
I hear a vague hum.
It’s never a noise I like
hearing.
We’re all on guard.
1:04
PM
Made it. Got an eyestalk. Donnie grabbed one too, just in
case.
And now we go all the way back!
1:19
PM
..random eyestalk in the middle of the plains.
Staring
at us. They don’t normally do that.
We’re on guard.
1:37
PM
Patch of several different eyestalks.
All staring at
us.
This is just weird.
2:04
PM
We’re back at the tower. I’m legitimately surprised
nothing happened at all on the way here. Not even any Legsteps waking
up.
2:05
PM
Donnie’s
holding the eyestalk she took up to the door
FIDJFG
OKAY
We’re..
we’re in a giant ballroom now!
I guess we’re inside!
This
ballroom is gorgeous. Sequins in the curtains, chandeliers at least
seventy feet above us, spotless marble floors, portraits of fancy
designs on the walls.
Just like everywhere else, though, it’s
completely deserted.
2:08
PM
Stepping through, slowly. I'm following Donnie, as she's
still heavily armored. I've got our 6. Or whatever.
I only hear
our footsteps. I see no shadow out of place.
Just a quiet
ballroom.
Oh shit, a bathroom. Hang on, Donnie!
2:11
PM
I stepped into the men’s room and immediately saw the
women’s restroom from that hotel in London. I saw the Harlequin
standing there, looking below the stalls into the one I was hiding
in.
And then I blinked. Now it’s just a regular restroom.
For.
For all I know, that
one was all in my head.
2:14
PM
This stall has one piece of graffiti, and only one.
Was
guwo ga endia yora omnis, grow en envied gyas knawa yora dest
manaf.
Was yant ga guatrz yorra ruinie en stel art
yora dsier deata art alroetsue.
Zodaw.
No
clue what it means, or even what language it’s in. But it creeps me
out. o_o;
2:17
PM
I heard Donnie gasp outside. I'm coming, I'm
coming!
…okay what
Mannequins! All standing around the
ballroom, being mannequins! Most are frozen in romantic dancing
poses.
Donnie's in the middle of the floor.
The spotlight’s
on her, so bright. I see no fear in her eyes, no expectation, no
emotion at all besides curiosity.
The mannequins, without being
seen moving, have formed an aisle directly between herself and I.
A
nearby speaker begins playing some familiar piece in an old-fashioned
style.
Donnie looks so curious. I.. am, too. I want to know a
lot of things, but..
..but then again, right now I’m just
curious as to how well she can dance.
2:25
PM
We slow danced. It went.. surprisingly well. She led the
way, and as we shifted, we touched not a single mannequin. They
seemed to shift out of the way for us when we weren’t looking.
And
then the Legsteps came in.
They came in and turned the
oldie-sounding piece into a dubstep remix of Madonna's "Beautiful
Stranger."
As the piece came to a climax, the feeling that
it was just me and her in there came true: all the mannequins are now
gone.
As if to applaud our performance, a ladder has
fallen from the ceiling. We can climb it to reach some new room.
2:28
PM
fdsjg
water
wet
journal wet
(The
journal is perfectly dry.)
2:34
PM
We swam upward, only to discover we were trapped in some
kind of underwater maze. So we swam right, up, right, up, left, up,
and.. yeah, directions.
Now we’re in a room with a very low
ceiling. I have to take my trilby off just to fit in here.
There’s
a little rabbit in here and a sign that reads “1- Kill.”
..o_o;
2:35
PM
I wish I hadn’t seen that.
A set of stairs has
appeared nearby, taking us to the next floor.
2:36
PM
This is also a room with a low ceiling. There’s another
sign in here that reads “2- Kill.” There’s a few flies
flying around. Well. Okay. Even I can
do that one.
2:39
PM
3- Kill, two spidercats.
2:43
PM
Give me a minute.
These
were just spidercats, but, like. That doesn't mean it's fun to see,
or to know what I've done.
2:50
PM
4- Kill. This is a severed human head that still
functions perfectly. He calls himself “Teddy,” and he’s begging
us to put him out of his misery. o__o;;
2:52
PM
…
2:53
PM
5- Solve. Yes, something that doesn’t say “Kill!”
Here,
we have a chessboard set up. There’s a rock shaped perfectly like
an old man seated at one end of the board, seeming to suggest that we
get first move.
2:55
PM
Donnie, I had no idea you were so good at chess.
She’s
taken the seat and is making some pretty interesting moves. Moves I
wouldn’t use. But then I’ve never won a game of chess in my life.
3:02
PM
She and the rock man look of equal wit.
3:09
PM
Donnie just fucking pulled a “Checkmate.” Rad,
dude.
The next staircase is open.
3:10
PM
6- Kill, a tree.
3:12
PM
7- Kill, a mouse.
"I'm not really.. loving this
either, Jordan."
No, I know.
Look, just. Let me do
this. You did the rabbit.
3:14
PM
8- Kill, a regular human being named Jeremiah.
3:19
PM
He fought back. Had me on the ground until Donnie shot
him square in the chest.
3:20
PM
9- Kill, a WAIT WHAT AM I SEEING THIS RIGHT
3:21
PM
I am. o____e;; It’s asking us to perform an
abortion. There’s a woman right here, fully awake, no anesthetics,
naked, legs spread. Pregnant.
And the room provides us with a
crowbar.
Donnie said, to the room, "Are we going up against
fucking Jigsaw?"
3:30
PM
I mean, I’m.. I’m pro-choice, but… this is just a
caricature of what that even means.
..the staircase still
isn’t down.
Oh, it wants the woman, too. ._.
3:37
PM
She kept screaming about how the NIHIL was keeping
her here. The Sine Labore Nihil.
..”Nothing without
work.”
Staircase is here.
3:38
PM
10- Solve.
There’s two doors and two guards.
Yeah,
no, this is an easy one. Oldest trick in the book.
If you were
the other guard, what would you say is the door leading further up
the tower?
"I don't know. He never talks to
me."
...shit.
donnie's
found instructions on the wall. probably should have read these
first.
"One guard never tells a lie. One guard never hears
a lie. These are the same guard.
The other guard never leaves
his post while observed.
One door leads further up the tower.
The other door leads back to the entrance.
You have as many
questions as you need, but if you choose the wrong door and make your
way back here, the doors and guards may shuffle."
What?
donnie
"What?"
okay uh. never tells a lie, never hears one
either…
and the other one.. I mean, he may
tell a lie? it doesn't specify... but he never leaves his post while
observed…
donnie, let's both look away from the guards.
3:39
PM
When we turned around again, one of the guards was inches
away from my face. I nearly decked him on instinct. He's gone back to
his door.
Okay, so he's not the one who will always
tell the truth.
But he's also the one who told us that the other
one never talks to him.
Uh.
donnie "Hey, mister!"
talking to the truthful one
"Yes?"
"What's
behind your door?"
"I dunno. Never checked."
"You've
never checked?"
shrug
"The doors change every now and then. I can't say for sure where
either of them go."
"Dammit."
"I'm
sorry I couldn't be of more help."
Could you... check
now?
"Oh, I
never leave my post, not ever."
"Wait, so you also
never could have checked before, then? So your answer omitted that.
That's kind of untruthful."
"Well, is a lie by
omission still a lie?"
"Yes"
Yes
"Huh."
Wait!!!
Donnie!!!
What
if he's the liar? What
if both guards moved
when we weren't looking?
You
there! Other guard! What's behind your
door?
"Oh, I don't know. I never checked."
Shit!
3:42
PM
We just tried a fucking door.
It's pure blackness in
here. Following Donnie's headtorch.
3:44
PM
A LONG FUCKING WALK
a voice speaks to me...
4:08
PM
Here’s what seems to be a fancy hallway, red carpet and
everything. Portraits line the wall, all of famous musicians.
There’s
a left and a right here, as well as a path back into blackness.
I
don't know where Donnie went.
4:10
PM
I took a left,
and now I'm in a giant room filled to the brim with mirrors.
Specifically, it seems to be a mirror maze.
The ceiling and
floor are mirrors. The walls are mirrors. And when they're not
mirrors, they're glass, looking out into more and more corridors and
twists and turns of mirror and glass.
4:12
PM
..someone else is in here with me. Hearing footsteps
now.
Donnie?
...
4:14
PM
I hate tension, I hate horror, I hate feeling scared, I
hate it, I hate it
4:16
PM
but. I fucking love
mazes. u_u
4:20
PM
left
forward
right
right
forward
fuck
back
left
forward
forward
left
forward
right
right
left
4:24
PM
just when I think I'm getting a sense of the size of this
maze, another turn breaks my sense of the boundaries.
now
there's stairs taking me to another level above.
maze upon maze.
4:32
PM
I swear I saw movement in a reflection in the corner of
my eye.
oh god where is that exit
4:38
PM
…it’s up there. On the ceiling. A ladder into a
trapdoor.
Very high ceiling.
Now how do I get there.
Maybe
if I keep looking. Maybe if I try to get to the far side wall.
4:53
PM
I made it. I found the far side wall.
But I'm
gonna feel even more vulnerable climbing up that ladder.
4:54
PM
Okay. I’m gonna give it a shot.
Gonna climb up and
push on that trapdoor, see what's above.
5:949
eo
a voice speaks to me.
I made it to
the floor above, out of the maze, and staring at me is a
corpseg
brown hair with purple bow, striped shirt,
a face I knowr
this is Anna. this was Anna. she
made it to the tower, she made it this fari
eyes
staring lifeless, flies buzzing. I killed those ones just as easily
as the ones beforem
I don't see what killed her. I
don't see what pierced her heart. there is nothing arounda
this
was the right part of america for my ex to have gotten to. I can
believe she made it here, to this Cipher's realm. but something
killed her before I could get herel
what would I
have even said to her? would she have been happy to see me? we ended
awkwardly. I wished her well... I could have gotten hered
I
could have gotten here. I could have gotten here. she didn't deserve
thisi
65843920
mrf
mrff
mfff
mfff
mrff
mrff
donnie
help
6:45
PM
do you want to see?
6:50
PM
the musicians have left.
but anna is still here.
the
door ahead opened, and donnie found me. found anna.
"did
you do this?"
I found her.
"huh. someone else
trying to get to the top of the tower."
this was anna. this
was my ex.
"o-oh. are you sure?"
I.. guess I
can't be. but.
"c'mon. let's.. leave this room. you don't
need to hang around this."
no. yeah. okay. let's go.
7:34
PM
Somewhere along the way, we wound up boarding a small
indoor riverboat ride. It was very pleasant, complete with cute music
as we rode.
I.. didn't feel it.
Maybe that wasn't...
her?
I never did meet
her. We were an online thing. And we didn't even last long. But
beyond that, we were friends.
But
that is to say, I can't be certain that every brown-haired corpse...
is…
Ugh.
7:37
PM
The boat let us off at the bottom of a large
staircase.
We’re going up. No other choice.
"This
feels close to the top. Are you sure you're okay for a big
fight?"
I'll try.
"It might have still been a
Musician thing, you know…"
Please, let's just.. go, up
the stairs, let's go.
7:40
PM
Reached the top. Huge majestic doors.
7:41
PM
This is a very giant concert hall. About as big as the
cathedral the God Machine resided in. I bet this is the room we’ve
been hunting.
7:43
PM
There’s a single eyestalk on the stage. o_o
7:45
PM
RISING
…THAT’S
I
KNOW THAT THING
THAT’S GTHERU. THE GUITAR-SHAPED BLUE
MONSTER.
Except
this one is giant, has
millions of suction-y tentacles, and an eye stalk for every
pore.
It’s the Grand Gtheru.
Monitors above the
stage label it as “The Sixth Cipher,” and “Sine
labore nihil.”
Nothing without work. As heard before.
7:48
PM
And in come the Legsteps with a bitchin’ drop.
Starts
with a siren and everything! How appropriate.
"You ready,
Jordan?"
I'm good. It's us against a giant boss
monster.
That's all that matters right now.
Let the
attack begin.
7:53
PM
Gtheru’s sending its tentacles at us.
I'm trying
that crowbar, we picked it up earlier. It's sharper than it looks.
7:58
PM
Fended off the invading tendrils.
Now the tentacles
are retreating, and the Legsteps are playing some other riff.
..eye
stalks. A wave of eye stalks.
Okay. Gotta cut some chaff. Wheat.
Uh. How does the expression go?
7:59
PM
Donnie’s running off.
What’s she doing she’s
going to the concert stage.
Whacking the fucker, but it’s
blocking itself with tentacles!
Hold up there, I'm coming!
8:02
PM
I’ve fought my way here; Gtheru’s tentacling up a
shield, but this crowbar sliced it apart.
Underneath is some
very strange substance that’s pink and smells like
plastic.
Donnie's cocking her rifle. Looks like she'll be adding
her own.
8:07
PM
My crowbar does nothing against the under-substance, but
Donnie's rifle is ineffective to the surrounding tentacles.
So
she's the offense, and I'm the defense.
8:13
PM
Gtheru’s closing his tentacles in, trying to trap us
inside.
I got us out; looks like round one’s over.
8:15
PM
Gtheru changed colours. He’s now orange.
The
Legsteps are playing something really strange now. Heavy
as fuck, but strange.
..Gtheru’s tentacles are
floating, separate of it.
Some are blue, some are red.
I
sense they’re going to try attacking us.
8:18
PM
Oh god, I can’t figure out how to damage a single
one.
Donnie's gotten some, but then many others just have the
bullets bounce off like nothing.
They’re flying around,
lashing us again and again
8:19
PM
..hey, I just damaged that one. That one that was
blue.
Hm.
8:20
PM
I can hit only blue, Donnie can hit only red. When we hit
them, they drop little.. gadgets. They look like jigsaw pieces.
8:25
PM
I put a lot of them together and it made a little
harpoon. o_o
Throwing it!
8:26
PM
Socked Gtheru square in the face, it seemed to hurt
it!
..the monitors above the stage just said “2: Upload,”
but then changed; now they say “GOTO 1: Author.”
Huh.
The tentacles are flying at us again.
8:34
PM
We repeated the process and made another little
harpoon.
The monitors say “2: Upload” now.
Throwing
now!
8:35
PM
It just shattered to pieces, the harpoon. And the monitor
said “ERROR: User multiuploaded.”
..idea.
8:42
PM
Another harpoon. Okay, Donnie, you
throw this one.
8:43
PM
Right in the face, it did damage! “GOTO 1: Author.”
8:50
PM
Okay. My turn.
8:51
PM
Goto 1 again.
9:02
PM
Okay, Donnie. "Upload" that fucker.
9:03
PM
Gtheru is keeling over in pain, but it seems to be still
sending tentacles.
The screen says “3: Review. Who did most
damage?”
…fuck! o_o
9:05
PM
Uh. We think.. it.. was Donnie’s. The last one
thrown.
..the monitor’s now on “4: Publish.”
Gtheru’s
tentacles are back to surrounding its now-blue self.
"Okay.
Cover me, please."
Right behind you!
9:14
PM
Gtheru changed colours one more time. He’s red now.
The
screen says “5: Promote.”
Fuck. What?
….what’s
that noise
9:15
PM
SHADOWCLONES
running right past us. o_o
Charging
at Gtheru.
It’s roaring like mad, and
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOM
9:17
PM
The Grand Gtheru is dead.
What a weird-ass fight.
9:18
PM
Where it used to be, there’s an inscription. The actual
Cipher.
Zaarn, plina, zarle, milra yeeel!
…it’s
that language again.
What does. What does that mean.
"Roaring
oceans, rustling meadows, gushing waterfalls are all
but fragrances of the past.”
OH GOD BLINDING
LIGHT
9:19
PM
cockroach jesus. at the entrance of the hall. wearing his
white robe to disguise his body.
"The works of nature home
to your planet are all but fragrances of the past now. As we come
closer to that bountiful boundless day, a new era will seize the lies
and teach you a more fundamental nature: what is natural to
all existence."
donnie's pointing her rifle at him
he's
smiling wider "I do not fear your weapons. There is nothing to
fear when Rapture is coming."
shoot
him.
BANG
she got him in the face. a big hole in his cheek.
no blood.
he still smiles.
...he's turned away from us.
about to leave.
Wait!
What did we... just... do? What did
this Cipher do?
chuckle.
"Sine
labore nihil held the
cruelty at bay."
11:00
PM
What?
..what just happened?
We’re in the
Peisistratos.
..I don’t know. o_e
11:04
PM
Tiresias came in.
He’s telling us to rest up.
“We
will talk in the morning; I need time to prepare."
11:39
PM
Donnie’s clutching me tight, fast asleep.
I can
try to sleep, but.. I’ve got too much on my mind right
now.
Just want to write. Just want to think.
(Attached:
“As do I.
One of the chapters in my life is something of a riddle to me, and
this log brought it to mind.
I'd
just finished signing a hieroglyph onto the side of a mountain-- the
other gods talked me into it, they consider it to be their form of an
autograph for the eyes of history-- when I figured I'd just about
stayed long enough. In my time in ancient Earth, I'd prevented many
divine bouts, shared my wisdom with whatever humans felt themselves
ready to stare into my blank gaze, and even celebrated a new year. No
luck on taking memory away, though. I'd have to wait for that
superpower to come. Instead, satisfied with the state of affairs of
the times, I sneaked away in a lull of conversation and approached
the Gates of Olympus.
A mahogany wind kept me company as I
braved the elements of the
Empty City of yesteryear. It wasn't really any different, but for
some reason on this occasion it decided to delay my journey a little
longer, knowing I could do nothing in retaliation, knowing I depended
on its mercy if I wished to travel anywhere. For three days and many
more nights I wandered the repetitive streets until I happened upon
something resembling a park. There, I decided to take refuge on a
bench and rest my eyes a little.
I dreamt I was blind in a more
mortal manner. I dreamt of the widest expanse of nothing you've ever
seen, stretches of the stuff shifting between every blink, my blinks
lasting aeons in this mighty sleep. I dreamt of sound, of smell, of
touch, of memory. The sound of love's laughter. The smell of hair.
The touch of fingers upon fingers. The memory of a life without
responsibilities such as these, the memory of a youth in sight
unaffected.
My eyes opened to the sound of birds chirping. I
felt someone sit down on the bench next to me. No matter how hard I
tried, I could not see. I touched my face, ensured I was still there.
Pinched myself, ensured I did not still dream. Cried out Untamo's
name. I was not dreaming. I could not see anything. I figured it was
appropriate that I would finally experience the blindness proper, but
still I felt cheated.
I heard the sound of rustling next to me.
Then of chewing. I spoke, asked who was there.
--
Your best
friend, ever.
I recognized the voice.
---
Sempiternity.
--
The same,
am I. You?
Spoken with the diction of a professor.
---
I..
believe I'm same. Sane? Same as I've ever been.
--
Tiresias.
Which?
---
I'm, uh.
Thoth.
More chewing.
--
Still
young. Ham sandwich?
I reached out my hand until I felt the food
placed into my grasp. Took it and ate it. It was good.
After a
while of silence, I asked:
---
Where have
you been since Nyarlathotep
and his bunch showed up?
Offended.
--
Not
because you should, but because you must.
---
What?
Apologetic.
--
I travel
the stars. Hardly by my choice.
I recalled where I'd met my
friend to begin with: They'd just sorta stumbled into our universe,
unsure of the location or the date. I suppose they really
can't control
their wanderings.
--
-
It's okay.
So where are we, might I ask?
Silence.
---
Sempi?
--
I cannot
say where.
---
You can't
say?
--
No. I
cannot see.
---
What.
Why.. well, why not?
A long sigh.
--
Last place
I arrived, I scared the people. They
held me up to… a hole in the sun.
Burned my eyes out, pain. Of course, next day my eyes recovered but
when the people saw, they blindfolded me and cursed the blindfold. I
can't take it off.
---
A curse?
What do you mean by that?
Meekly.
--
I mean
'eldritch stuff.'
I fumed. Nothing turned red in my mind. I
stood up.
---
They can't
get away with that! Can you take me to them?
--
I can't,
never. No.
I stood there, feeling the rhythm of anger fade away.
Felt tangible. Felt awkward. Waited for any further response before I
asked
---
Why not?
--
Do you
know of time?
---
What kind
of question is that? I'm the god of time! Or something. Of course I
know time!
--
You don't
know of time, forever's meaning. You know the words to eternity's
song but you sing along to an opera you merely observe.
The
angst in their voice turned into a python of poison upon my ears.
----
Oh yeah?
I've watched worlds crash and burn. I've participated in the ultimate
battles to determine the fates of everyone I've ever loved. I
have loved, and I've lost.
You can't say I don't know more than the words to this opera.
I
heard Sempi get up. Felt a finger stab my chest, lighter than a push
but firmer than a touch. A point.
--
You know
of a life, your life,
a life that stands a sentence in the library of time. The battles you
fought were not fought by you, you were an actor. The people you've
lost, you care more about their deaths' impact on you
and yes I say that with poison, with angst, with vitriol,
with knowledge of the-- experience of the--
unbeatable hatred, tragedy, the flames of elders and worse still the
damned sufferings of youths, so
now a FUCK YOU for you
have not lived, you
have barely breathed,
you do not know the sickest part
of all of this opera: Time is entropy, or ideally, time feeds on
effect. But eternity is endless, endless!
So all we suffer, and all we fucking cry and
grieve and die
and hate and
kill, fuck-- all of
this has been a single letter in dictionaries multi-volumed and
always written. We have not been through a fraction of all we'll go
through before we can finally end our suffering--
lie down and… just……
die.
Silence. No more birds chirping.
--
Forever's
a long time before I die.
Then I heard footsteps running away.
Sempi was gone.
I stood there for about a minute, thinking about
what happened. Then I found I could see again, see an empty park in
an empty city established for empty worlds with empty gods. I hated
it all.
A duck flew by.
I sighed and resumed my long walk
home.”)