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for number 5 in the series, we jump forward to the year 2017. evidently I was going through a particularly rough patch. I think I’d just heard some horror story (that is, real anecdote) about how the benefit offices spoke to disabled people under the UK conservative government. by which I mean I definitely did. some of that went directly into this blog.
it’s not all political. that subject upset me because I had insecurities about my worth. and this composition is all about worth.
visually I escalated the.. well, “visuality,” further from the previous entries. this one is primarily images. even the text content is contained in the images. in effect it reads like a comic. more like a vent comic.
the art is freeform. generally of the collage variety. I genuinely can’t remember how that abstract second image was made, and it’s actually possible I made it myself. the third one involved messing with a ring pattern in image software, there’s pretty easy ways to make an image look like a fractal. the bottom of that image was taken from one of the experiments that led to composition no. 3. image four.. okay I don’t remember what the background image was. could have been anything. and I also don’t remember whether that visible face is another of those dream-faces (from 4) or if it’s actually margaret thatcher (which would have been appropriate!).
image 1, besides featuring the Archangel as he appears in Topography Genera, also features the game Pokemon Ruby. I like that, I really like that first image. captures the effect of Seeing Something In The TV. a face peering out. an ominous beginning.
so. so yeah. this composition is the one that’s the most like venting. like 2, it’s a series of bad thoughts. unlike 2, it does not die down. it ends open for more bad thoughts.
in reading this, we are staring into that TV, or into the game, and seeing a hideous face, we are staring directly into a very ugly ideology.
…yeah this one is hard to come back to. and I could probably dive even more into the themes, but let’s leave this ramble, uh, unfinished.